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They’re just a kids

Gue ini kan anaknya mageran akut sangat ya. Salah satu faktor gue males banget keluar rumah pas weekend itu bukan karena gue gamau bersosialisasi atau apapun tapi lebih ke tingkat mager gue yang tinggi. Pertama males siap siapnya, step menuju kamar mandi dan gue pun kadang kaya kucing kalo abis kelamaan di ruang ac kena air tuh gue menggigil, trus pilih baju nya udah makan waktu setengah jam sendiri kaya “duh gapunya baju” padahal di lemari kaga muat lagi baju gue. Trus makeupan, milih kerudung yang warnanya sesuai baju, pas liat cuaca di luar panas banget jadi mager juga. Apalagi kalo naik kendaraan umum makin makin mager. Nah, tapi lain halnya kalau gue udah pake baju rapih dan mood udah naik. Kalo sekali udah keluar gue suka mager banget balik ke rumah. Yaudah habiskan seharian full di luar karena di pikiran gue saat itu ya “udah rapih nih gue, udah cakep yakali pulang” Lalu kemarin, gue ada halal bi halal keluarga lalu gue pikir kan udah outfit ngemall juga nih. Sore gue ajak ponak

Tengah Malam

Can you help me to control myself? I’m not ready really.. Sometimes I don’t know about my decision, Is it really right for me? Is it the good way for me? I need someone to support me :( I need someone to say “everything will be fine, you can do it” Even I know some people are worry with me but I need to hear “It’s okay, everything will be fine. I’ll be here to support you”  while hugging me. I’m afraid. This will be my very long journey. Honestly, one of the the things makes tonight feel so gloomy that I find it difficult to leave the past behind. I couldn’t see my most favorite people anymore. Usually if I don’t meet one of them in a day, I already miss them. I’m so grateful to meet them really, even if I have to spend much money for them I really don’t mind because I enjoyed it. And also for him :( How about me.. if I dont see him in a week I already cranky, Now I can’t see him maybe for a quite long time :( I really hate goodbyes. The worst of the part of the life is goodbyes/farewe